September 19, 2011

Not Getting Things Done


My biggest problem as a writer is I don’t write. “A writer writes,” my friend J.D. keeps telling me. I have lots of stories and ideas. But I also have a wife and two little girls and a job and friends all this comes first. Then there is so much to read and I have so much to write and then the perfectionism creeps in and so I don’t know where to begin and now I’m overwhelmed which leads to paralysis so I just turn on the t.v. and end up doing nothing.
I tell J.D. I can’t get it all done. So he shares this story:
A young boy went to spend the summer working on his grandfather’s farm. The grandfather took his grandson to the back pasture, which was covered with brush, trash, and old farm junk. “Your job this summer is to clean up this back pasture so we can till the soil and plant some seeds,” the grandfather said. 
After the old man left, the young boy looked around at all that needed to be done and became overwhelmed. The pasture seemed so large, and the brush and junk so deep, that he had no idea where to begin. Completely overwhelmed, he sat down in one spot and spent the rest of the day trying to figure out where to begin.
The next day, he walked back out to the pasture and was again overwhelmed by the amount of work to be done. He again became paralyzed by not knowing where to begin, and so again he picked a spot, sat down, and spent the rest of the day thinking of what to do. This became the young boy’s routine every day for the next several weeks. 
When it was almost time to plant the seeds, the grandfather went out to the back pasture to see what the boy had done. He was astonished and confused to see his grandson sitting on a pile of brush. None of the trash and junk was cleaned up, and the brush was thicker. “What happened?” the old man asked. His grandson became ashamed. “I didn’t know where to begin,” the boy replied, and he went on to tell his grandfather about being overwhelmed and not knowing where to start.  
The grandfather looked at his grandson and said, “If you had just cleaned up the spot you sat on each day, your work would be done.”
I love this story because, as a young boy, I would spend parts of my summers (and most of my holidays) working with my grandfather on his farm. I also love this story because I’m trying to clear out a few pastures (my office, desk and inbox) and plant some seeds (write some stories). 
So what are you trying to create or do that needs some pastures to be cleared, and what pile are you sitting on that you can start with right now?

My grandfather and I on the farm.

September 18, 2011

Feast Day Food for Thought


My Lord God, 

I have no idea where I am going. I do not see the road ahead of me. I cannot know for certain where it will end. Nor do I really know myself, and the fact that I think that I am following your will does not mean that I am actually doing so. But I believe that the desire to please you does in fact please you. And I hope I have that desire in all that I am doing. I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire. And I know that if I do this you will lead me by the right road, though I may know nothing about it. Therefore I will trust you always, though I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death. I will not fear, for you are ever with me, and you will never leave me to face my perils alone.

Thomas Merton - Thoughts in Solitude

September 14, 2011

Cooking Up Something New


I’ve been in the blog kitchen experimenting with some recipes and broadening the menu items. While it may need to cook at bit longer, it's time to take omarrikabi.com out of the oven and put it on the table.
We read something every day, and what we digest in that reading becomes part of who we are. Some of what we read is junk food, while some is bread for the journey. From text messages to novels, blogs to business reports, twitter feeds to newspapers - everything we read (and write) tells some kind of story.
My hope and intention for this online diner is to offer some stories and ideas for you to feast on (or at least something you can grab for a snack). I hope you’ll stop in from time to time and join me. There is always room for one more at the table.


September 11, 2011

Prayers In Memoriam

Photo by my brother from his Brooklyn apartment, circa 2001.

"O God, you made us in your own image and redeemed us through Jesus your Son: Look with compassion on the whole human family; take away the arrogance and hatred which infect our hearts; break down the walls that separate us; unite us in bonds of love; and work through our struggle and confusion to accomplish your purposes on earth; that, in your good time, all nations and races may serve you in harmony around your heavenly throne; through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen."   Book of Common Prayer 815